Charlotte pinned the words to Just As I Am in the year 1834. She was an invalid, bed ridden, watching life and service to her King pass her by.
Charlotte felt useless,
Unworthy of Christ’s love.
She struggled to find her purpose.
Charlotte was depressed.
She was as human as we are human.
Exactly one hundred years later, a young, sixteen year old boy, named William Graham, surrendered his life to Christ. We know him as Billy.
Billy went on to be the most renowned evangelist of modern times.
Under the sound of Billy’s pleas for salvation, thousands gave their lives to Christ and in the background of every invitation there could be heard the old hymn, Just As I Am, written by a girl who was in the midst of one of her darkest hours
who was throwing herself
at the feet of Jesus
and who was reminding herself
of the truths
of His salvation.
Charlotte died not knowing that the words she wrote would be instrumental in the salvation of so many, but there was something that Charlotte did know. She knew that she was utterly dependent on the sacrificial death and atonement of Jesus Christ.
She clung to Him, and she did one more thing.
She took what God had allowed in her life and the talent that God had given her, and she worship Him when it felt like she had no use.
Charlotte took the tools that she had in front of her and made an unknown impact on eternity.
Charlotte didn’t plan on being an invalid at the age of 32, and we don’t plan on feeling sidelined and without a purpose, either.
One less child.
Two less children.
Floating, reevaluating God’s goodness, our worth, why we were created.
God has a plan, and it’s probably not going to look like what we expected.
But, He is still God,
And, His work is eternal.
That means that he sees the dominoes of worship as they fall into the next generation, something that’s impossible for we finite creations.
We may stay childless, and many of us will have one less, maybe more, empty places at our table.
It won’t change.
But, we can be a Charlotte.
We can be brave enough to do what we can for today, to worship Him in our neediness.
We can become mountain movers, born out of sheer desperation.
We can, unknowingly, out live our lives.
We can throw ourselves at the feet of a loving Father and unwittingly bring others along with us.
Father, make us dependent.
Make us broken.
Mostly, make us courageous.
(c) 2017 Victoria Paxton
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Victoria Paxton spends her mornings teaching special education and her afternoons raising two fantastic sons. She's the wife of Mr. Paxton, and, also, the mother of a grown, full of faith daughter who is married to Victoria's favorite son-in-law, Nathan.